Week 9 Start date: 12/28/11
Initial weight: 218
Current weight: 201
This week's loss: 0 pounds
Last week's goals: Maintain control while in Little Rock, work out 4 to 6 times between now and next week, stay under caloric budget for the week, and work HARD to overcome feelings of defeat, insecurity, and self-negativity.
What went well: Even though I went over my weekly caloric budget and didn't work out one time, I didn't gain any weight! I had good days where I began the act of being my own cheerleader, which literally really "pumped me up". People are beginning to notice my weight loss and give me compliments, which is so nice. It's great with others can finally tell and the hard work is paying off! I helped inspire and motivate others by sharing my struggles on my blog.
Challenges: Week 9 was my most challenging week so far. I struggled to meet most of my goals. I maintained control while in Little Rock - for the most part - but didn't work out once, went over my weekly budget by almost 500 calories, and struggled again with insecurity, self-consciousness, and feelings of defeat and being overwhelmed. I wanted to cry and kick and scream, frankly. I was usually able to talk myself out of letting it defeat me, but there were times I really thought about losing it.
Two road trips in a row led me to McDonald's several times. While it's not "healthy" food, I only ordered a cheeseburger and medium fry with water every time (vs. the two cheeseburger meal and large fry with a hot fudge sundae I used to get on a weekly basis... it just sounds GROSS to me now!!)
I'm very frustrated with the barriers I keep facing with trying to have a Zumba class offered to employees at work. Seriously, how difficult does it have to be? I truly felt so angry yesterday that, for a second, I just wanted to scrap the dream altogether. The excuses I keep receiving are ridiculous.
But after I cooled off, I turned the anger into fuel. NO ONE is going to get in the way of this dream! Those excuses are lame and it's clear they aren't committed enough to support me in making my dream a reality. So, I no longer need their "assistance". I'll find another way.
When God closes one door, He opens another.
There. It's done. And my dream still lives! AND, when I'm fit and healthy and happy, I can feel great that I didn't let those barriers get in my way. YEE HAW!
(Oh, and here's the perfect cheer for this.. "You've gotta fight to win!")
This week's goals: Stop making excuses for not working out, work out 4 times between now and next week, stay under caloric budget for the week, and work HARD to overcome feelings of defeat, insecurity, and self-negativity.
Total lost so far: 17 pounds!