Monday, June 4, 2012
Preparing to Launch
Ahhh, life... with its ups and downs.
Life... with its mountains and valleys.
Life... in God's timing, not ours.
It certainly feels like I'm preparing to launch into something great because "my arrow" is being pulled back hard at the moment. My emotions are all over the place. I'm overwhelmed. I'm exhausted. I'm down. I'm edgy. I'm uncharacteristically impatient and intolerant. I'm sad. I'm confused. I'm tired. I'm filled with tears.
I'm really frustrated with the progress of my dreams. I'm wishing I was further along in my weight loss with better results to show. I'm frustrated that what my heart desires to do for a living still isn't what I'm doing every day. I'm upset that certain other things aren't happening for me.
I don't know why I'm feeling this way. I don't know where it's coming from. I don't know what's in store. And I can't pretend everything is peachy right now.
What I do know is that God is in control and it's all part of His plan. I'm feeling these emotions for a reason, revealed in the right timing. There's a purpose for all this, so I trust it's going to be okay. I have faith that God will get me through it. I will keep looking forward and I won't stand still. I'll keep moving in the direction of my dreams, even when I'm unsure of them.
Tonight I could have written a feel-good post with pretty pictures and kept these real emotions to myself. But I need to be transparent. I need you to know I'm real and this journey isn't easy. I need to acknowledge the ugly parts as well as the beautiful. And I need you to not give up on your dreams.
We're in this together!
at 9:40 PM