Start date: 12/28/11
Initial weight: 220
Current weight: ? (Last weigh-in 4/18/13)
Total weight loss: 25 pounds
Last week's dream focus: Manage pain; keep praying, trusting, having faith, and being positive; find ways to be patient and fight this depression Satan wants me to fall into... focus my eyes on God and His blessings!
What went well: The Lidoderm patch is helping the pain and enables me to do more moving. I'll admit I'm nervous to wear it because I'm secretly afraid it will somehow delay progress with resolving the issue, whatever it is. I know that sounds strange, but I don't want a temporary fix - I want a full resolution. I'm trying to focus on this patch as a blessing from God to help me until we figure it out.
My visit with the surgeon yesterday was fantastic! She was so open, caring, and understanding. She listened to everything I had to say and she addressed all my concerns. She did a lot of pushing around on my stomach and it hurt so bad... I was still really tender. She couldn't feel a hernia, but didn't want to rule it out just yet. There's a possibility there could be small holes in a layer of muscle through which pieces of abdominal fat could protrude, pressing on nerves and causing pain. She said the smaller the hole, the greater the pain.
She's also questioning if:
- I have adhesions from my surgery last August
- a sciatic nerve is compressed and causing the pain
- my gallbladder is functioning properly. She indicated I did not appear to have the typical symptoms of gallbladder issues and my pain is located much lower than that type of pain. I'll have a pipida scan next Tuesday to see how it's functioning so, if there were problems, she could correct it during surgery.
Challenges: Shutting Satan's voice out and being patient are my greatest challenges right now. I'm just so darn ready to move forward with my life and fulfill dreams. It feels like I'm wearing concrete boots and can't move forward! I keep reminding myself I must be okay with God's timing, that this is for reasons only He knows and I have to trust and worship Him as I wait!
This week's dream focus: Continue managing pain; shut Satan down when he uses his little tactics on me; continue to pray, trust, have faith, and remain positive; be still and patient; keep my eyes on God and His blessings!