Wednesday, November 6, 2013

Wednesday Wow Factor!

Week 96
Start date: 12/28/11
Initial weight: 220
Current weight: 200 (15 pounds lost since 8/26/13, taking a break from the scale)
Total weight loss: 20 pounds

Last week's dream focus: Seek God’s voice in everything; stay focused on my blessings my dreams; fight Satan’s attempts to lead me back to a place of victim mentality and depression; be super patient with my progress and enjoy the journey; HUSTLE my buns off to pursue my dreams; ignore the Devil's lies and deceit; keep sharing my story with others; and continue inspiring myself and others!!!

What went well: God has brought me through the pain and heartache I've felt in suffering this 5th miscarriage.  I can't say it gets easier each time, but I'm somehow stronger and able to recover faster.  Maybe.  Some days it's still really hard to take.  Some days it doesn't bother me much.  Some things trigger those feelings and I break down.  But I've left this in God's hands and I'm not anxious.  I have peace that I don't understand, I just know it's God!


The big NSV (non-scale victory) of my week: receiving 3 compliments in one day on my weight loss!  People are really beginning to notice and it TOTALLY fuels me to keep going!  I will NEVER give up on this dream!

Challenges:  I did have a couple of days where I wanted to break down and fall into old, bad habits - like eating when I wasn't hungry.  The heartache I felt was familiar and the old me would eat my problems away... only to create more problems.  The new me, while taking Plexus, didn't do that.  I stood in front of the pantry door several times wanting something to eat, but in looking at the food I saw the situation for what it really was... a longing for comfort.  I saw that this food would never comfort me, it would never make the pain of losing a 5th baby go away.  Only God could do that.  So I turned to Him... and that's why I've been able to heal a little faster than before.  I'm placing my emotions and pain fully into His hands; not partially in His hands and partially in the hands of food that won't love me back or ease my pain.  It's FULLY in His hands.

This week's dream focus: Seek God’s voice in everything; stay focused on my blessings my dreams; fight Satan’s attempts to lead me back to a place of victim mentality and depression; be super patient with my progress and enjoy the journey; HUSTLE my buns off to pursue my dreams; ignore the Devil's lies and deceit; keep sharing my story with others; and continue inspiring myself and others!!!

2 comments:

  1. Chrissy,
    My heart aches for the magnitude of your struggle but I am always so amazed by your strength. Hugs my friend.

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    1. Oh thank you so much, sweetie. That means the world to me! God has a plan, that's all I know! I don't understand why this is happening but I trust it's going to turn out for my best. LOVE TO YOU!!!!! :)

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