Wednesday, November 27, 2013

Wednesday Wow Factor!


Week 99
Start date: 12/28/11
Initial weight: 220
Current weight: 195 (20 pounds lost since starting Plexus on 8/26/13)
Total weight loss: 24 pounds


Last week's dream focusDon't let current responsibilities get me down or overwhelm me;  get enough rest and focus on what I can do... and leave the rest; fight Satan’s attempts to lead me back to a place of victim mentality and depression; HUSTLE my buns off; ignore the Devil's lies and deceit and shut him up when he starts in on me; keep sharing my story with others; and continue inspiring myself and others!!!


What went well: Our production release went so well and although it's been super intense for the last three weeks, I made it through!  I felt a lot of pressure as the QA lead, but surprisingly I didn't let it overwhelm me like I might have in the past.  I didn't exactly rock my weight loss during that intense period, but I didn't blow it either!!!  I still made it to Zumba every Tuesday with a Friday night class thrown in the mix.  There were so many times I felt like skipping only because I had so many responsibilities on my plate... but I talked myself through those sabotaging thoughts and did NOT allow a job to stand in the way of my dreams!

While it bothers me that it's been a week since my last blog post here at 'Overweight... AND OVER IT!', I know I needed to prioritize my tasks and focus on what had to be done in the right order.  I really appreciate you hanging in there with me and being so understanding.  It honestly means SO MUCH to me!


Challenges:  I’ve still struggled with feeling exhausted and drained, but I think the combination of the colder weather, the sky becoming dark by 5:30, and being super-duper busy at all times during each day of the last three weeks has caught up with me.  Now that it's all behind me I feel like I can get back to normal!  

One thing I've noticed was how different things were for me during these, intensely high-pressured days.  I've never stopped taking Plexus products, but it seemed I felt more ravenous during those times and found myself more focused on food.  Maybe it was because there were different chemicals flowing in my body as a result of the pressure.  Maybe I was facing old habits from my past where I would eat when I was stressed.  Maybe I had a change in hormones.  I'm just not sure what the cause was but I found myself faced with decisions; eat what I want because I'm stressed and "I deserve it" or talk myself through the real emotion and say no to this food I KNOW I DON'T NEED.  Honestly, I did both.  I did great some days and allowed my emotions to overtake the situation other times.

But you know what?  I'M STILL MOVING FORWARD!  I haven't quit just because I made some bad decisions!  It's life.  I'm living it.  I'm learning from it.  I'm making progress.  I'm not giving up on it.  I'm still on the path to my dreams, even with a few pit stops.  

Oh, and the coolest thing is the first day we had a break and the pressure was off, I was totally back to my "new normal".  I wasn't hungry and had to force myself to eat, I wasn't focused on food, I wasn't craving things I shouldn't be craving, and when I did eat, I didn't want much of anything... just tiny amounts and I was satisfied!  YEE HAW!  I'm so thankful to have Plexus!  Now, I just need to work on a game plan for my next high-pressured situation.


This week's dream focus: Get re-focused on my dreams, leaving the past in the past; fight Satan’s attempts to lead me back to a place of victim mentality and depression; add more workout time to my life; HUSTLE my buns off; ignore the Devil's lies and deceit and shut him up when he starts in on me; keep sharing my story with others; and continue inspiring myself and others!!!

Wednesday, November 20, 2013

Wednesday Wow Factor!


Week 98
Start date: 12/28/11
Initial weight: 220
Current weight: 196 (19 pounds lost since starting Plexus on 8/26/13)
Total weight loss: 24 pounds


Last week's dream focus: Keep my eyes on my blessings and on my dreams – using them as my fuel to make them come to life; fight Satan’s attempts to lead me back to a place of victim mentality and depression; HUSTLE my buns off; ignore the Devil's lies and deceit and shut him up when he starts in on me; keep sharing my story with others; and continue inspiring myself and others!!!


What went well: I didn’t feel like going to Zumba last night but with some encouragement from the boy, I went anyway.  And, of course, it didn’t disappoint!  It was just what I needed to get me out of my funk!  I danced off stress, burned calories, and felt accomplished.

Today my friend, Abby, and I were in the break room at work when we saw someone putting pints of ice cream in the freezer.  We jokingly asked what that was all about and discovered they were left overs and available to anyone.  The second I learned it was there, I wanted it.  We heated up our food, grabbed some salad left over from the same meeting, and went back to our desks. 

I asked Abby a couple of times if she was going to get some, secretly hoping she’d say yes.  Indecisive, I finally went back to the break room and washed my dishes.  I came back to my desk, WITHOUT the ice cream!  AND neither of us ended up getting any!  We both decided we didn’t need it and we remained accountable to each other rather than talking each other into doing things that would delay our dreams.  Now that’s teamwork!!!


Challenges:  As the QA lead of our current software release at work, I’ve had a lot of additional responsibilities on my plate.  With it come extra hours devoted to work and less free time.  This has affected my blogging, my sleep, my stress, and the amount of time I’m able to work on my dreams.  I’ve felt exhausted and drained, but I'm not overwhelmed!  I know it will soon come to an end so I'm focused on the good and hanging in there each day!


This week's dream focus: Don't let current responsibilities get me down or overwhelm me;  get enough rest and focus on what I can do... and leave the rest; fight Satan’s attempts to lead me back to a place of victim mentality and depression; HUSTLE my buns off; ignore the Devil's lies and deceit and shut him up when he starts in on me; keep sharing my story with others; and continue inspiring myself and others!!!

Tuesday, November 19, 2013

What Software Development Has Taught Me About Life



My most recent ah-ha moment was when I recognized how much fifteen years in the software development industry has actually taught me about life.  There are so many parallels!  Let me fill you in…

Since the day you were born, you've been programmed.  It began with your parents or guardian telling you what you can and cannot do, what you can and cannot say, where you can and cannot go, what you can and cannot be.  Some of their programming was positive and some was negative.  Some “programmers” excelled at programming, some were average, and others should have been placed on a development plan or fired. 


Programmers 
There are many types of “programmers” in our world… 
  • Some were trained by the best and excel at programming, teaching others how to improve programming in their own lives.
  • Some were trained by a good trainer but strayed from those teachings, doing things their own way with some succeeding and some failing.
  • Some appeared on the outside to be good at programming when, in all actuality, they had no clue what they were doing or the severity of the impact it would have.
  • Some didn't have good training but took the initiative to learn, improving their programming skills to change the history of bad programmers.
  • Some had awful training and it showed in every aspect.

Plug-ins 
We’re also faced with a variety of “programming plug-ins” to choose from…
  • Friends – providing you with alternative perspectives, influencing you, giving their input
  • Education System –providing you what they feel is important, teaching you how to fit into this world
  • Culture – providing you with various attitudes, behaviors, and ideas of what is socially accepted and not accepted
  • Religious leaders – providing you with various options about what to believe and how it will influence your life
  • Media – inundating you with messages, manipulating you to do what someone else wants you to do

Types of Programming
Programming is received in three different ways:
Verbally – what you hear
Modeling – what you observe of others
Experiences – what you experience first hand

All of it has developed how your mind thinks and how you view opportunities, other people, money, success, failure, and risk.  It’s the reason the people you associate with (your development team) are so important.  It will slowly help you create a different “YOU”!  Great team work contributes to a great outcome, dysfunctional teamwork contributes to a poor outcome, and average teamwork is uncertain; it could go one way or the other.

You become the average of the five people you spend the most time with.  When you’re at the bottom, the others will pull you up.  When you’re at the top, be cautious; they will pull you down.  When you stay with five who don’t want to grow but you do, be afraid; they won’t let you grow.

Test Results 
During different phases of testing, we've encountered a variety of outcomes from these programming choices…
  • The results were superb and it became the catalyst for other programmers!  It was pleasing and others were impacted in positive way, seeing an improvement in their lives because of those programming choices.
  • The results were filled with lessons learned the hard way.  While some were absorbed quickly and corrected, others caused issues in unexpected areas, some not noticed until years down the road when it was more difficult to correct.
  • The results impacted several areas with the outcome dysfunctional and not user friendly.  Problems were consistently reported and when the programmer attempted to implement changes, things only seemed to get worse.
  • The results were overwhelming at first, but hard work, effort, and extra hours were spent making improvements.  The programmer did not give up or settle for mediocre.  Over time, things got better and eventually others wanted to join in!
  • The results were not what anyone would want to deal with or commit to.  People avoided - and spread the word to make sure others would avoid - the final product.  People didn't believe anything good would ever come from the disaster created and felt it was full of defects, worthless, and good for nothing… so don’t waste your time.


If you still have breath, you can be re-programmed! 
There is hope for you!  As long as you have breath, you can change your programming… and changing your programming will change your results! 

Disclaimer: High quality re-programming doesn't happen overnight.  It takes time and effort and it will cost you something.  If you want quality results (your dreams coming to life), it will take time and will cost you (eliminate unnecessary spending, giving up time on the sofa watching T.V., giving up an addiction, forgiving someone who hurt you, etc.).  In the end, it’s worth the cost, effort, and patience!


Development Methodologies 
You can choose from different development methodologies.  Some are better than others…
     Waterfall methodology: Spend months or years reading books, watching videos, taking notes, gathering feedback, observing others, and strategizing to come up with a plan about how to implement what you determine will give you the best results.  Then, implement it all at once.  After implementation, you may find it’s not at all what you wanted, which leads you back to the drawing board to deal with the issues that arose and come up with yet another plan to make it better.
   
Agile methodology:  Do quick research, take simple notes, and begin to implement a few ideas in short sprints (time frames) rather than a bunch of ideas at once.  When you discover things aren't working the way you thought or hoped they would, use it as a lesson learned.  Instead of beating yourself up over mistakes made and scrapping the project altogether, you come up with a new plan and keep moving forward until you eventually reach the finish line.


Development Overview
If you’re still alive, it’s not too late to begin re-programming!  You just have to start where you are with what you have.

No matter what kinds of programmers made up your past, you can begin re-programming yourself today.  The past is gone, today is new!

Always choose your “programming plug-ins” wisely.

What might be viewed as worthless now could very likely be a diamond in the rough!

When something doesn't go as planned, don't scrap the whole thing.  Learn from it, try something new, and keep moving forward.

Your programming drives your thoughts.  Your thoughts determine your attitude.  Your attitude drives your activity.  


A big thanks to Eric Worre for inspiring this post!

Wednesday, November 13, 2013

Wednesday Wow Factor!


Week 97
Start date: 12/28/11
Initial weight: 220
Current weight: 196 (19 pounds lost since starting Plexus on 8/26/13)
Total weight loss: 24 pounds


Last week's dream focus: Seek God’s voice in everything; stay focused on my blessings my dreams; fight Satan’s attempts to lead me back to a place of victim mentality and depression; be super patient with my progress and enjoy the journey; HUSTLE my buns off to pursue my dreams; ignore the Devil's lies and deceit; keep sharing my story with others; and continue inspiring myself and others!!!


What went well: I’ve lost 24 pounds total again, 19 pounds since starting Plexus 11 weeks ago!  I’ve gone down a size and am wearing pants I haven’t fit into since April of this year!!! 

CAN I GET A “YEE HAW” OR A “HOLLA”?

I’m almost where I was when I was doing so well before my pain resurfaced in April!  That’s a lot of progress and I’m so excited!  People are beginning to really notice the changes and I’m receiving more compliments.  It feels good but as nice as it is, I’m not letting it drive me.  I’m not in this to seek the approval of others… I’m doing this to make my dreams come true!  I must continue working on caring less about what others think about me and focus more on trying to see myself the way God sees me!

I also want to thank all of you who continue to support me on my journey!  It was a pretty scary thing for me to change the name of my Facebook page from ‘Overweight… AND OVER IT!’ to ‘Chrissy Kirkman’.  It sounds simple, but talk about leaving my comfort zone to do a cannonball off the cliff!  It was a big risk and I had a lot of lose!  But so many people have stuck beside me and others have joined in the fun... so LET’S KEEP DOING THIS!


Challenges:  It’s still a struggle some days to deal with the heartbreak of suffering my fifth miscarriage. Sometimes I just feel like breaking down, no matter where I am.  But I refuse to allow this to keep me from my dreams!  I can’t let it… and I won’t.  I will not be held back from my dream career or from my weight loss and health dreams.  It’s what Satan wants, but I am constantly reminding him that he’s not in control of me, my situation, my life, or my future.  GOD HAS THIS!!!  I will not fear!!!


This week's dream focus: Keep my eyes on my blessings and on my dreams – using them as my fuel to make them come to life; fight Satan’s attempts to lead me back to a place of victim mentality and depression; HUSTLE my buns off; ignore the Devil's lies and deceit and shut him up when he starts in on me; keep sharing my story with others; and continue inspiring myself and others!!!

Tuesday, November 12, 2013

As Clear As Mud


In my head it all makes sense, it just didn't translate as well as I'd intended!  :)

It seems there was some confusion about exactly what is and isn't changing with my Facebook page/blog/etc.  A couple of people have mentioned this to me so I want to clear things up in hopes it helps everyone!

What is Changing

  • The name of my Facebook page is changing from 'Overweight... AND OVER IT!' to 'Chrissy Kirkman'.


What is Not Changing

  • Nothing will change with my 'Overweight... AND OVER IT!' blog!  I will continue writing several posts each week, including my 'Wednesday Wow Factor' segment (which will be REALLY GOOD tomorrow... stay tuned)!
  • Nothing will change with my new 'Overweight... AND LOSING IT with Plexus!' blog!  I will continue writing at least two post each week, including the 'Plexus Tuesday Transformation' segment!
  • Nothing will change with the content I post on my Facebook page.  I will continue striving to make it as relatable as possible, improving daily!  I pray it only gets better from here!
  • Nothing will change with my other social media sites!
  • NOTHING will change in the way I feel about my followers, my supporters, and those of you who've stood beside me in the last two years!  You've meant SO much to me and your feelings were my biggest concern when God placed this name change on my heart.  I pray you'll stand beside me and not give up on our journey together.  I know I sure won't!


Thanks for stickin' with me and I hope this clears things up.  Here's to a lifetime of overcoming!


Monday, November 11, 2013

Following My Leader!


I've learned the hard way that when God speaks, it's in my best interest to listen and follow His lead!  To date, it's never worked out well when I've chosen to ignore Him and head down my own path.  

Today, I'm listening and I will follow His lead!

I'm stepping out of my comfort zone and making a change.  It's a change that will help light the path to my dreams!  

Having a Facebook page entitled "Overweight... AND OVER IT!" can be a great thing, but can sometimes hinder.  I created this page as another way to connect with like-minded people; people who struggle, people who make mistakes, people who dream, people who want more out of life, and people who want to overcome, just like me!  I created it to encourage, inspire, motivate, and reach those who need it.  God has used this page in a mighty way and I'm so thrilled when I think about the things He's done! 

For a while now, I've been troubled in my spirit about the amount of people I'm unable to connect with because of the name of my page.  Some people don't struggle with weight so they aren't drawn to "like" the page.  Some may not want a page called "Overweight... AND OVER IT!" to show up on their personal page.  When I invite friends to "like" my page, I risk offending them or hurting their feelings as though I'm "calling them fat", when all I really want is to motivate and inspire.  Teens and young adults may not think they would be interested in my page, but what if they were influenced in a positive way, rather than exposed to more junk of the world?  Although I do post a lot about about weight loss, healthy living, and pursuing your dreams, I have so much more to share!  


Not only do I have my "Overweight... AND OVER IT!" blog, I also have my "Overweight... AND LOSING IT with Plexus!" blog.  I considered creating another Facebook page to go with that blog, but it's so much work to maintain additional pages.  I have so many dreams I'm working on and I fear it would take time away from the pursuit of them.

God sent an amazing coach and encourager to suggest I change my Facebook page name from "Overweight... AND OVER IT!" to simply "Chrissy Kirkman", to expand my territory and impact more people.  I knew this was the confirmation I needed to hear!  

So in faith and confidence I'm following God's lead and changing my Facebook page name!  Everything will remain as it is now, but the name will change to reflect me, as a person!  I will still maintain my two blogs, Pinterest, Twitter, Instagram, Google+, LinkedIn, Vine and any other social media sites I'm forgetting!  I'll continue doing things as I have, but constantly improving!

I invite you to join me in embracing this exciting change!  If you know someone on a journey to their dreams, trying to overcome life's challenges, or someone who's down and in need of some inspiration, please share my page with them!  I'm excited to build our community and reach more people for the good!

Wednesday, November 6, 2013

Wednesday Wow Factor!

Week 96
Start date: 12/28/11
Initial weight: 220
Current weight: 200 (15 pounds lost since 8/26/13, taking a break from the scale)
Total weight loss: 20 pounds

Last week's dream focus: Seek God’s voice in everything; stay focused on my blessings my dreams; fight Satan’s attempts to lead me back to a place of victim mentality and depression; be super patient with my progress and enjoy the journey; HUSTLE my buns off to pursue my dreams; ignore the Devil's lies and deceit; keep sharing my story with others; and continue inspiring myself and others!!!

What went well: God has brought me through the pain and heartache I've felt in suffering this 5th miscarriage.  I can't say it gets easier each time, but I'm somehow stronger and able to recover faster.  Maybe.  Some days it's still really hard to take.  Some days it doesn't bother me much.  Some things trigger those feelings and I break down.  But I've left this in God's hands and I'm not anxious.  I have peace that I don't understand, I just know it's God!


The big NSV (non-scale victory) of my week: receiving 3 compliments in one day on my weight loss!  People are really beginning to notice and it TOTALLY fuels me to keep going!  I will NEVER give up on this dream!

Challenges:  I did have a couple of days where I wanted to break down and fall into old, bad habits - like eating when I wasn't hungry.  The heartache I felt was familiar and the old me would eat my problems away... only to create more problems.  The new me, while taking Plexus, didn't do that.  I stood in front of the pantry door several times wanting something to eat, but in looking at the food I saw the situation for what it really was... a longing for comfort.  I saw that this food would never comfort me, it would never make the pain of losing a 5th baby go away.  Only God could do that.  So I turned to Him... and that's why I've been able to heal a little faster than before.  I'm placing my emotions and pain fully into His hands; not partially in His hands and partially in the hands of food that won't love me back or ease my pain.  It's FULLY in His hands.

This week's dream focus: Seek God’s voice in everything; stay focused on my blessings my dreams; fight Satan’s attempts to lead me back to a place of victim mentality and depression; be super patient with my progress and enjoy the journey; HUSTLE my buns off to pursue my dreams; ignore the Devil's lies and deceit; keep sharing my story with others; and continue inspiring myself and others!!!

Monday, November 4, 2013

Work Your Butt Off


When you want a dream to come true, work your butt off to make it happen.  Don't let anything get in your way.  Don't let your fears overtake you.  Brush them aside and soldier on.

Keep trying.  Keep learning.  Keep making mistakes.  Keep feeling.  Keep discovering yourself.  

Keep shutting Satan down.  

He will lie to you.  He will deceive you.  He will try to make it more difficult for you.  He'll throw stumbling blocks in your way.  He wants you to give up.
He wants you to throw in the towel... again.

But don't.  Not this time.  Not this dream.  Don't let it die.  Don't go back to unfruitful and unfulfilled.  Don't just keep your head above water.  SWIM!  RIDE THE WAVES!  CATCH SOME RAYS!  

Don't give up on your dreams... MAKE THEM COME TRUE!!!